Screaming out Loud

 Written May 31, 2025, Rev. 6/3/2025

Stretching,  rolling around in the 

thought of you.   

"Take me to your river,  I wanna go.....

I wanna come here and give every part of me,  

but there's blood on my hands 

and my lips are unclean...."

Feel the warning 

burn of your beard 

searing, healing 

love softly whispered

All along my neck,  my spine.  

Your piercing gaze,  

scared to death that this might be it, 

he might...might just be my 

everything and  beyond.... 

twitching,  stretching, 

Please, just be kind to me.

Almost can't stand the 

grabbing, growing, pulling,  

twisting sensation closer 

and clenching between 

the thighs of my heart....
Man, those eyes....

Laying prostrate at your feet,  

fully extending back forward,  

flattened on floor,  

begging to given more.... 

more of whatever this is.  

I adore and revel, 

and exhale divine scent,  

sublime on my tongue and my heart,  

pull apart line upon hard knotted line 

upon line upon precept,
I know where you've just stepped,
But, it's all good,  all safe 

from harm right now.....

Damn,  

just let me go 

from your mojo... 

I'm done.

Enough! Uncle!

Waving white flag.

That's it. You've won.

Trying in the best, 

most honestest 

way I know how to be

raw,  open,  honest, 

authentic.

Brutally feeling  EVERYTHING

fully out loud,

Uncensored.

Unscripted. 

Just ME. 

I scream, savage,

unanswered,  

up at the clouds.

Scream myself 

hoarse, voice now

totally gone

for the moment.

That's what I get

for screaming out loud

like that,
to the heavens, 

to life in general....

Well, go on, 

take my screams, 

heed the call,  

with heart beat,

you answer, 

well mostly.

Most of all,
Full of promises,  

full of unanswered love,

Of acceptance,  of healing, 

Repentance,
Of life reborn,  fought, 

Conquered,
Re-begun. 

Once again, 

you have won, Sir. 

Well done, you.
All my soul,
Swollen, 

Beaten,

Bruised. 

Bold, yet,
Tender,  

Fragile with hope,
Full of feelings yet unfelt,  

or so it must seem to you

from your point of view.

It begins with the slick
Of your lips against mine,
softly licking away the rough times,
grinding, slowly crossing all lines
like crossing the street, 
simple. Easy. 
Like you've known
where I am 
all along.
Home again.
Right where you

belong.

In between sighs

and dreams, 

Come.

Come and dream with me.

In between days, 
Flutter me,  coax me to be
All that I can.

Put your Key where it goes.

You know.

Turn.  Ignition. Slowly.

OK.

Give me some gas now.

Here it goes. 
Ready?  Let's go!

Wheeee!

Combust,  

Rev. 

Exploding
my emotional vomit

all over your road.

Hide my face in my pillow.

Sorry bout all the

Bursts on your soul,
As I'm unloading now.
Panting, freezing up.

Relax, just calm down 

a little,
catching mind's breath

a little...

well, whatever's left

after THAT.

Giddy giggle.

All Ready, reloading.

I already know

what you're gonna say

All of that beauteous shit,
You don't know the half of it!
What the hell do i do with this,

Just wait a sec,  

what, now, is all of this?

Do I have to sign for this?

Well, if I do, then

so do you, so

ante up, now, darlin,

strut your stuff right over here.

Sign here on the dotted line.

Are ya done? 

Well well well, then.

Contract, handshake, sealed

with spit and a pinky promise.

Where in the world you been

hiding out at

all of my life, darlin?

The hell with those 

delicate, so tender, soft
timid beating hearts, 

there'll be none of that.

Ain't got no time for that,

child, please! 

No way--

That's just not my style.

Not by a longshot, 

nor by a mile.

My mouth gaping
Grabs your wild,

Chomp! Chomp!

Gulps all of it down.

Mmmmmm. 

Delicious.

Divine.

And all mine.

Treasure this trembling,

unrefined

chaos of me.

Fragile, raw, new to me,

Blowing right out of my head,

leaving beautiful headache instead.

Draping arm off the side of my bed.

Love me tender, hold me tight.

Trace lazy waves by the firelight.

Don't let go now, 

keep me close, cuz

my love is a fire hose,

drenching, deep, blasting,

doses the ways of the world

with my song, with my prayer,

close my eyes.

with my voice 

drench my rain

on this world, 

unbridled, unnamed,

with my ragged 

wholly healed

through the pain.

striking peace, 

striking raw,

striking true.

Thundering.

Now, quiet. 

Hear that--

it's all because of you....