INCONCEIVABLY BLONDE....

  Written May 31, 2025, Rev. 6/2/2025 God am i  the stupid one,  I must be, just tell me. been living in dreams, for one, once again, Lord, instead of the present day blues.   Honest, I been doing all that I can for us,   living you (k)new to us,  warming up my voice thru us silly sing-time and dancing in MY new hoodie, once yours, in the kitchen. MINE! do ya like the view? I want to soak up all of you like a finely aged wine made more perfect with time. every quiver,  with every tremor,  every bead of  sweat,  i need the all of you,  lapping up the look of you,  sitting quiet, sitting pretty, purrrring away all softly, all comfy-like, and peaceful. nestled right into your lap. That's my place now. undefiant, unafraid. protected while petted. What you said at the start Own my heart Own my own soul Feels it,  it knows what you taste and you smell like.  Knows w hat you want,  what I need yes, indeed. Still I ...

 Written June 1, 2025, Rev 6/3/2025 Going back to my pillow fort,  a little burned, a little skinned, also a little happy but scared,  it's your dare now, so, I dare you. Share with me All of it, Pour it all on me. Double-dare you. Why do you keep hitting my heart, over and over mercilessly, pounding, revving me all racecar-like Pulsing,  start of an adventure. I want in, Beckon me,  invite me into. I promise not to touch,  tickle, Squeeze too much. I'm showing wide open,   but you, You hide behind those shadows too. Just pull back that membrane and Know,  I'll nibble gently,  but will never let go. Unless you make me.   Smash my face against mattress, Yet you, Ignite the fire that speaks to us thru The whispers,  images of Texts thru the night, My strength long gone,  Dare I give up this fight.... Sunburned and soul burned,  yet both willingly so.... Where do I go To release all this burn This fire,  lava. let m...

 Written May 31, 2025, Rev. 6/3/2025 Stretching,  rolling around in the  thought of you.    "Take me to your river,  I wanna go..... I wanna come here and give every part of me,   but there's blood on my hands  and my lips are unclean...." Feel the warning  burn of your beard  searing, healing  love softly whispered All along my neck,  my spine.   Your piercing gaze,   scared to death that this might be it,  he might...might just be my  everything and  beyond....  twitching,  stretching,  Please, just be kind to me. Almost can't stand the  grabbing, growing, pulling,   twisting sensation closer  and clenching between  the thighs of my heart.... Man, those eyes.... Laying prostrate at your feet,   fully extending back forward,   flattened on floor,   begging to given more....  more of whatever this is.   I...

 Written May 31, 2025 And he taunts me,  fully haunts me,   says  what he wants me  to  spill on a page All my wisdom from age Well, hard fought, Conquered, won Yet my life's just begun Anew, focused. Do,  do come in, Water's fine, How you been? Share with me What,  how,  where, when You first felt it, The pulse, It's electric. Felt,  started talking. Since when Do you offer Safe shelter? To me? Who even does that these days? I stop,  listen,  stare At the text on the page on my phone. At my age I damn well know better Than bite at the morsel You stage.... Yet I fall, Falling still Into the night's thrill As my heart begins Pouring out rage. Rage of passion, unbridled suppression Submitting, I linger, assuage All my demons,  my hopes, Inhibitions in front of Anonymous stage. And I sit,  And I think, Mind's gone blank, Face gone pink Pink with knowing, Yet uncovering truth. Truth so real, It just guts me, feels li...

 Written May 31, 2025 Why,  hello,  how are you? Are you just passing thru Wandering in Right this way Step right up.... Won't you? Take a seat Take your time Get (un)settled Unconfine Yourself fully Unwind Leave behind on my skin The hot breath of your day Exhale, breathe Find your way here Safe with me. Never fear Intertwining legs Under covers At dusk. Under the Peeking out stars Found us. Not yet Lovers. But yet Something. More. Tech yanked us together. Clicking quickly. Completely Magnetic. Fireflies glowing Anew Watery eyes shyly showing The words I dare not, Cannot say Yet But I feel it That buzz, warming, Knowing Your candle burns there Lighting Darkened paths From afar. Feeling out loud I'm not cocky, Nor proud Pouring, bleeding All of me Onto your page. Cradle,  cuddle My heart closer Befuddled mind Giggles softly May I nuzzle That bristle of chin At this stage? Cuz these soft fuzzy socks That I wear, I'm still cold Still afraid. Not nearly enough To feel w...